what a freakin downer

Just looking back over last night's post. Wow. What a downer I seem to be. In my day-to-day I don't *feel* like such a downer. I have a lot of joy, despite what seems to be so much school and stress and heartache. Isn't that the human condition, or maybe the particular challenge of being human? To find sparks of joy in the drudge? Today I woke at K's and did chi gung in the dark before dressing and leaving for my early exam. That was good. Not a downer. Now I'm gonna go rock this business associations exam, and that won't be a downer either. And tonight, back to the Shambhala Center, another not-downer. It will be a good day.