This morning I woke up with a cold.
I guess that's the way it works. I had a sore throat and I felt worn out all day. I'd planned on painting the living room today, but Mahavira wouldn't let me because of the fumes. Instead, I huffed and puffed and dragged several crates of books out of the basement and up to my room upstairs. Slowly but surely all the stuff I've had in storage in Mahavira's basement since May is making its way upstairs. I guess pretty soon I'll start taking things back down, like the ebb and flow of tide, all the extra stuff I don't really need up here will end up back down there.
I put out a lot of books today. I just put them up on shelves, I didn't bother to sort or organize them at all. It used to be one of my favorite things, organizing my books. Poetry here, sexual politics here, religion here, novels here. Now I don't care. Or I care in some distant part of myself, I notice everything's all mixed up and it bothers me just a little, but I don't do anything about it, I just keep sticking them up on shelves.
I guess I've moved too much. Evidence that I've moved too much: my mom called me yesterday because she has a package she wants to send me and she wanted to make sure I was still at the same address. In fact, I am *not* at the same address. I figured it out once a few years ago: over my whole life I had moved, on average, once every six months. I stayed at my last apartment for two whole years, which you'd think would stretch my average a little, but then I go and spend only two months living in Mahavira's studio apartment, and that rachets my average down again.
The theory is that I'll live in this house with Mahavira for a very long time. Years and years, maybe for the rest of my life. So that will definitely change my average. And I guess that's partly to blame for my disinterest in setting up my space: I've got plenty of time. No rush. My brother is coming to visit me again in a couple weeks, my only goal is to have the bed put together up there so he'll have a comfortable place to sleep.
Plants are also a priority, now that I live above-ground in a house with windows. My room upstairs has two little windows and two gorgeous skylights. I plan to exploit the light up there by filling the room with plants. So far there are three, but there's time.
Tomorrow I think we're going car shopping. I got approved for a loan and I think we're going to go look at cars tomorrow. I say "think" because I'm not sure if I'll wake up feeling worse or better, and if I feel worse we might just have a total repeat of today. I'm off tomorrow because it's a holiday and I get those off now that I'm salaried. It's weird. Anyway, I've got to get a new car because mine finally died. It pooped out while Mahavira was driving it on Thursday. I felt so bad about it because I insisted she drive my car instead of her truck. I was so sure it was in better shape than the truck, but I was wrong. Now it's parked somewhere off Belmont, I have no idea. Mahavira says it will start, I guess we'll try and go move it eventually.
Really I just feel like staring out the window and not doing anything. Being sick makes me feel lethargic and brain dead. I subscribed to the Sunday Times recently: I tried to read the paper it, but I could't concentrate long enough to finish any stories. Except I forced myself to read all about McCain's VP pick and then I forced myself to try and imagine who those so-called "swing" voters might be. I tried to imagine what kind of jobs they have, where they live, what their friends are like. It baffles me that there are people in this country who honestly don't know whether they prefer Obama or McCain. Seriously. Who are those people? I want to know.
Mahavira went to bed an hour ago. She's got cramps. She's tired. I've mostly been laying around all day and am the opposite of tired. I was trying to read Nausea, by Sartre, but it was boring me so I decided to write. Also, I think the dog has fleas. Other than that, things are good.