Tuesday, February 26, 2008

i finally got a piece of the pie...

So, this promotion thing is slowly starting to sink in... I've been wanting this job for four months, doing it on a part-time, interim basis, basically auditioning for it since November, and I'm still in a daze about actually, finally getting it.

I spoke to my arch-nemisis, I mean, my competition just now on the phone (he called to get my permission, I mean, feedback before putting another filing cabinet in my new office) and we had our now-that-it's-finally-over conversation. He congratulated me and then started spilling about the reasons he was given for not getting it. They were good reasons. They were the same reasons *I* would have given if I hadn't hired him. But it was still a little weird. He was very gracious about the whole thing, whereas I imagined that I might've walked into the middle of my workplace and commited hari-kari if I hadn't gotten the job. Which might explain why I was so stressed out over the weekend.

Anyway, there are a couple of things that I can't quite get used to: for one thing, I won't be working swing shift anymore. I've worked swing shift for almost the entire 6.7 years that I've worked at this place. I won't quite know what to do with myself when I have evenings off. EVERY EVENING OFF. I can hardly even imagine it.

Another thing is the fact that I'll be supervising people. Not just people: I'll be supervising people who were my peers yesterday. People who are my friends. That could be weird. Not to mention I have no idea how to be a supervisor. I'm actually planning to go Powell's City of Books today before work to try and find some self-help book about being a boss. I definitely need some guidance there...

And finally, and possibly strangest, I can't get my mind around the pay raise I'll be getting. I will be earning over a third MORE than I made last year. Take a third of what I made last year, add it to what I made last year (plus a tiny bit more for good measure) and that's what I'll make this year. Needless to say, this will be significantly more money than I have ever made in my life and I may very well feel like a rich person, however erroneous that feeling will be...

I remember an experience I had many years ago in Ohio. I heard a woman I didn't know very well exclaim to her friends, after getting a raise and getting her first post-raise paycheck, "I paid ALL MY BILLS out of ONE PAYCHECK!" I had no idea what she even meant or why she was so excited until my savvy friend filled me in: she got paid twice a month, and her income was now so good that she could pay all her bills with one of her checks, leaving the second check of the month wide open. I was astounded.

That's how I feel now. I will be able to pay all my bills from one paycheck (more or less). I still can't get my mind around it. It feels like so much money to me, but if I put it in perspective I realize it only seems like a lot because I've been living on so little for so long. For example, it's half what my (five years YOUNGER) brother has been making as a computer programmer. And it's just a fraction of what Waspy is making at her big law firm. But still... wow... it just seems like a lot.

Anyway, I know it's supposed to be taboo to talk about money, but I think that's part of what's wrong with people in this country. We don't talk about it, about the disparities and the way your income, or lack thereof, gives you a completely different experience of life than a person whose income is higher or lower. What I take for granted making my old wage, somebody else has to struggle for and what I struggle for, somebody else takes for granted.

Oh whatever, I'm just rambling. I need to go eat some lunch and then start making a list of all the stuff I need to buy now that I'll actually have some funds rolling in. New glasses, new clothes for work, new shower curtain, new shoes...


Blogger heather said...

congratulations! being a supervisor is definitely a learning, a humbling experience. it's been a while since i've been there but i can't believe how much smarter i would be about it now compared to the first time around. i'm sure you'll do great though, and oh i SO hear about the paycheck thing. i remember the first time that happened for me too. so nice.

12:33 PM  
Blogger roro said...

Congrats on your delicious piece of the pie!! That's great about your promotion and the extra jack. Well done you!

I wish I had some supervisory experience to share, but I've always been a plebe, working for the man. Or my wife. But I don't think her way of motivating me would be considered appropriate in your workplace.

4:47 PM  

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